Friday, March 7, 2008


oh. how nice it was of my teacher to mention that
i have this very very close guy-friend. haha.
well, luckily only met mr lee, if not choops would have so much to say.
requested for a change of seat,
though the one he suggested doesnt seems too much of a good change.
study-wise, all he had say was to ask me stay at home study,
reinenforced with my mum actually AGREEING.
dont know what else to blog anyway.
&& i guess im also going to be 'detained' at home for the next week
rahh! im frustrated. no. its rather going to be an emo post!
school is a living hell for me.
the people around me are always giggling,
AND I DONT LIKE THAT.
YES.
JASLIN TAN IS GOINING TO RANT HERE.
its like whenever i try to get focus,
i feel like crushing one piece of paper and STUFF it into their mouths.
*dont worry, in case youre reading, i doubt u will be the reader. aha.
scarier people are engulfing me,
taking away every breath i take.
i dont like it. i hate that.
there isnt any reassurence for me.
everybody who cares seems to go missing.
I CANT WAIT FOR MY SEC LIFE TO PASS.

teachers are forever looking down on me
WAIT TILL I GET STRAIGHT As.
no lahs. impossible.
BUT. wait til i score, and i'll make teachers eat back all their words,
sallowing down their throats.
HYPOCRITES are another thing.
thats the worst flaw of 4H.
yes i know you want to score,
but this thing that's in you is putting me off.
disgusting.

i guess people who read may be wondering
*omg jaslin is so so...
yea. i had eough of bottling up my emotions.
i had the feeling of going up people and scream at their face.
hehe.
yes im going abnormal.cause this is the first time im ranting off to my blog since its like nobody visits?
except for weifeng. thanks ;D
im always bottling up my emotions.sometimes to an extent, i dont feel anything at all.
im a cold hearted person who's devoid of concern.
i dont feel loved. either by my parents or. you. haha.
whoever that cares. yes im going to be straight.
i yearn for some parental comfort, but i dont get any.
my mum dont listens and my bro likes to make things difficult for me.
i find it hard to talk to anybody. people shuts me off.
thinking that there will always be someone ELSE to comfort me.
neither would i want. i want to be shut off temporary.
relationship wise, i dont know what happened.
everything seems normal, but we drifted away.
youre cold.
but sometimes it doesnt bothers me, and made me think.
i have this feeling of giving up everything.
everything i have.
perhaps this week it will be time for me to disappear away ;D

im afraid to have lost myself.
but who is there?
anyway, it was meant to be an emo post.
you can rant whatever you want back at me, im past caring.
im speaking about a handful of people anyway,
not anyone is particular.
im sad today, which this emotion seldoms find its way to my door.
perhaps this post might be gone, very soon.
when im in a happier mood. aha.

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