Wednesday, October 29, 2008




i guess you should be able to guess what's my mood now.


i screwed physics.


it was one of my better subjects.
it was one of my more-confident subject.
it was the subject which i put in hell lot of effort.
way more than what i did for my other subjects.



i dont know where to start from here. all i can say is,

Physics totally took all of us off guard.


section A especially. all the questions are so abnormal, that none of us had ever chance upon it despite the stacks and piles of worksheet and assignments we did.


IT SEEMED MORE LIKE A CHEMISTRY EXAM LOR!

what ionisation.. what wavelength. hell lot related to chemistry when I DIDNT HAVE ANY CHEMISTRY KNOWLEDGE LOR. i dropped chemistry, if you guys forgot.


one whole page on IONISATION. define, explain, blah.
ATOM! size. wavelength.
worse, THERMOCOUPLE. draw, label, details, explain, blah.
DIVERGING LENS.
draw.



crap lorr. thermocouple and diverging lens, none of them were the ones we placed emphasis on when we studied physics. ONE WHOLE PAGE CAN. alot marks kiss goodbye to cambridge already laa. we placed emphasis on thermometer, we placed emphasis on CONVERGING lens. arghhhh.



AND. i flipped the pages of my physics textbook.
I CANT EVEN FIND DEFINATION OF IONISATION CAN!


if im a chemistry student, its okay. i may be able to handle that. BUT IM NOT! unfairness!
crap.
rubbish.


all the effort i put in, guess went down the drain already. after a long day, im still on the same level with average physics students, which would end me a B3 (if im hell lucky) or a B4. i think nobody want to go see mr lee already lor. its like he also put in alot effort in preparing us, this batch. his best batch so far. even encouraging us and giving us a pep talk at the door of the examination hall.


i dont know if others felt the same as me, but i think
i let him down already.



i wanted to prove that i could get an A.
but now, i could only pray i could get a bloody B3.
i WAS confident about my physics.
i hate THAT look from people,(shant elaborate)
each of their facial expression etched deep in my mind.

but now i guess, there's nothing much to say.



i screwed a little of my amaths due to carelessness. it didnt matter.
i screwed my geography. like totally.
i am fine. expected.
i screwed my physics.
im SO not fine. im not fine in every aspect.

fine fine . i know what's done cannot be undone. let everything be done with and press on, look forward. yes yes. i know. im a good counsellor for myself already. so, please spare me with the "cheerups" "smile" and everything. yes, EVERYTHING. im sick of them. i know you guys care, but if you really care, spare me from them. (((:

i know how to get up,
i know how to
walk forward.
i know how to smile,
i know how to cheerup.


I AM NOT THAT PESSIMIST HOR.


if you think i am, obviously you dont really know me well enough.
i just need to rant, and things will be done with.

ت

anyways, its morning paper tomorrow.
emaths.

but i dont think i'll be studying it.
maybe giving tomorrow's lecture a miss as well.

why?


ALL FOR BIOLOGY'S SAKE.



crap. the heaviest subject of all. i think its comparable to the weight of a hundred tonne guy la! (okok i know there isnt) haha. but that's what i think. its biology paper on friday. means im left with 2nights to cram everything in.


but till now..

BUDDHA'S LEG LIKE DOWAN MAKE FRIENDS WITH ME LEI ):



haha.

OKAY TAGS REPLIED LTR ON. IM OFF FOR DINNER OR SOMETHING.
UPDATE LATER.



&& reminder, spare me from the "smiles" and "cheerups". hahah.

-to be edited ltr. :D

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